Approaching Tomorrow

, but I feel nothing! At least, I try to. Since I have to claim myself as a salafi, in no time, I am proud not to feel anything particularly happiness, in approaching the next day. Well yeah, it will be my birthday. I feel nothing, and I am proud of it. Currently I don’t think having a birthday commemoration is necessary. Yes, people will say, it is the time to look back to what we’ve done to our life. Life is so short. We should make it useful. People will say it is the time to gratify. We can live well until now, and did we say any thanks?

Whatever people say, I still won’t give anything on it. Tomorrow is still the same day. Tomorrow is still Wednesday, where the sun will rise in the morning, where I always have to compete with the sun, as always. There won’t be any significant warning for me that I am not mature enough to have the title of 21 years old. I still will be 21 years old, even when now I can’t manage my time well, or even I always need someone to wake me up in the morning.

Well, Julia has been a week in da house. She’s lovely with all the German’s character. But not the butt-head. She is so polite and looks fragile (or just because she’s that slim_). I don’t want to give any further comment, for it can be bad.

I regret one thing, that this last week I’ve been very busy with my friends, tasks, lectures, and research proposal. So that I couldn’t accompany her. I couldn’t even think to learn Deutsch. I didn’t know that she currently is a cat-walker a.k.a model until my mom found it out (and it makes sense with all her eating style).

I am looking forward to going to Karimunjawa with her, either just the two of us or with anyone. And to having Deutsch class, and to spending the spare time together.

I got to go now, I have to pick my mom soon.
Jaa, ganbatte, ne!

Cloudy, rite?

I do not wanna sigh, for it was all my fault. But then again I tried to blame myself, in order not to be lazy like usual. I am concern about my marks. They were almost all, a carbon-chain. Yeah. Cs are everywhere. Hate them all.

While I have to focus on my camp, I had this thought: to escape from all my responsibility as a camp leader. I do want to run from being a camp leader. I need to fix my mistake. I need to study harder in this holiday. I need to join the short semester.

But then I realized that this was my fault. Being responsible to what we have done, though it was out of control, is a sign of being mature. Hey, I am almost twenty one….

One bright thing happens these days is just I improved in driving car, and I am on my way to get the driving license, in a proper way. Thus it will be cheaper. The price, yeah. It was the only reason to get the license on normal path. Being honest always feels good inside.

I am looking forward to seeing either harry potter movie or the final book. Well I plan to watch the movie together with Julie, the German girl who will soon come to my house and spend 4 months with me. She will be in Indonesia for voluntary service in Setara, an NGO concerning street children. I do look forward to having nice days with her. Since I am the host, my parents and I have to work hard in tiding our messy home. Hahahaha. Yeah, to be honest, we have to move many things and clean many places.

It’s three days to go to the big event of debating competition. I have not made myself ready either the skill of public speaking nor the materials. Well good luck to me, I mean good luck for the struggle!!!