I simply need to boost my TOEFL score, that’s why I really need to practice my writing skill.
It all started from an old story. It was you all the time. Here I won’t be telling about how I can finally be in love with you.
The point is that I am in love with you, and it manifested as many things.
I suffer from physical symptoms such as tachycardia and palpitation. Sometimes I felt there are so many (yeah, not only one) butterflies in my tummy. I sensed nausea as well. I often felt my mouth got dry, and my extrimities were cold.
And not surprisingly, I was just trying to mention the list of a sympathetic nerve activation. Not to mention the sensation in my mind: that you’re simply adorable.
I love coffee. I love the taste, and the smell too.
I love black coffee, or with milk, or capuccino, or whatever-cino.
I don’t really adore mocha, though. I love chocolates, but not to be put in a cup of coffee. The point is, I always want to involve coffee as my daily intake.
I haven’t really been bothered by the diuretic effect of coffee, or the brain-stimulating effect. It even helped me to focus more.
But then, my heart starts beating harder and faster whenever I drink coffee.
At first I didn’t notice that much. But overtime, it got disturbing. I felt uncomfortable with the pounding heart.
I read a bit about coffee. It has cafein, a brain stimulant. It also has antioxidant properties, just like chocolates. Sure, good things. But I can’t ignore my pounding heart.
Then you came. Again. Yeah, you were in my life. And I felt that you disappeared. But then you came again, just like now. You brought me that sensation I’ve mentioned above: the sympathetic nerve activation. I admitted that those sensations were a bit disturbing. But it went on and on, I tried to count and surprisingly it has been a year. I simply get used to that sensation. I even started enjoying it. I called it a chronic sympathetic nerve activation.
So now I miss you. Well, in my own world, my imagination, you were always here. But I have to wake up and continue my life without you here.
I used to feeling the excitement, your presence, the butterfiles in my tummy,
even through the virtual world. And I miss the activation.
So hey, did I actually miss my pounding heart? My tachycardia and palpitation? Oh really? I got addicted and I need that sensation, stat?
Is it the coffee I’ve been avoiding that I miss? Guess it’s a yes.
Now I found an escape to sense the activation. It is through drinking coffee.
I read that the maximum daily dose of coffee is five cups.
And I won’t be missing you that much I want to drink six cups or more.
If I have to be addicted to something, you have always been my addiction. But since the future is an outer space’s secret for now, I need a new agent for my addiction.
And I decided that it’s coffee.
Well coffee, I welcome you in my life, again.
Ayu. In an episode of depression. Mon, Dec 27th, 03.24 AM.